Maybe it's just because I'm around family here but for the past few days I've felt a lot more at ease and really comfortable with myself. I've been living more in the moment and worrying less about things that normally fill my mind. I think that being around my brothers who are too young to even be bothered with issues that I am helps take my mind off things and puts me in this carefree and happy state of mind. I am so preoccupied thinking of what to play next and what chapter I left off on in my book to care for trivial things that usually seem so important to me. No one here cares if I have makeup on. No one cares if my shoes don't match with my outfit. I am the same Lily to them no matter what. There's no one to prove anything to or explain myself to. Anyway, I was just wondering if anyone else knew what I meant by all this. Is there anywhere that you go that makes you forget about the outside world and allows you to be you without any worries or judgements? Does anyone else even find themselves so stressed sometimes that they can't find a comfortable state of mind? By no means am I just talking about stresses from Hollywood or the industry. I just mean the things we deal with everyday that run through our minds the moment we walk outside our homes, regardless of where they come from or why they're triggered. I'm just going to open it up for thoughts from anyone, any age... after all, doesn't the search for a comfortable and confident sense of self last a lifetime?
Great post. good to know someone else out there has the similar thoughts as I do, :) So you have a wandering mind too. I just graduated with a graphic design degree and on the job hunt - Its summer, I want to relax (just for a little bit), but I can't, something keeps itching at me to job hunt etc.. even though I know I will, its not allowing me to relax..even though I know I will attack the job hunt! does that make sense? Also being a visual person (graphic design) I tend to envision things, which brings about all the wandering thoughts for issues of than design as well. you, being a creative person as well - even with broadcast journalism - the same mental wanderings apply. It comes with the territory of being creative. Then it comes with knowing how to channel it out.
I know this may sound strange, but the one place I know I can go that seems to take away the wandering thoughts is my time spent with family. My nieces( 3 and 8) and nephew (6). I don't know why but it does. much like you said about being with your brothers.
BTW.. great to hear your mis-matching your outfit and shoes and going without make-up AND without worry :) for what its worth I appreciate natural features, you'll never he me complain about going with out make-up :)
WONDERFUL.....WONDERFULLY PUT ! so nice to hear this mature introspective from you, very insightful for a young lady your age..and a bit of good self advice to remember and to hold onto.. yes, it's wonderful to realise family does or can (ideally) give us a sense of security and belonging and the importance to invest ourselves well with those so close to us in our lives...and that you have something most precious as another human heart and soul to connect with in this world...and love truly is eternal... also to realise that oftenly simple wholesome pleasures is very healthy for our hearts and minds..I too loved it when my children were little(not that it doesn't come with it's challenges) but to also expierence that unconditional love and exceptance ( well otherwise the teenage years can get tougher, some more than for others.. but anyway...) from those little ones and to watch children play laugh so easily and enjoy the most simplest things while less inhibited..
true as we get older we become more self conscoius and worried what people think.. how we look...sound...how we measure up..and competitive.. aware of what we don't have or aren't within ourselves and or compared to others.. and I suppose some of that is simply human and serves some good purposes(a sense of awareness and normal healthy care of self and others)...but it also can get out of control and it can change us ..hurt us, hurt others and become monsterous if we don't learn to keep it in check..we have to remind ourselves what really is the most important things in life...and except ourselves for the gifts we have inside of us and that we can't be all things .. or at all times ect. ect... also we need to get involved with things to truly make us grow personally on the inside not just for what we see on the outside( now I'm not saying we all have to be mother Teresa's here..variety is the spice of life so to speak and serves it purpose as well) ...but everyone can do something to work on growing inside and giving to others to help make this world a better place....I hope for you Lilly you can grow and learn and be the best that you can be..and hey if your not always and at all times that's o.k. too ! best wishes! maryann p.s. your journaling and sharing is neat..and I see helpful expierence...but remember too you are on vacation (holiday) so do relax, take time off and just enjoy the moment and time you have with family....
I know exactly what you mean, when you're with your family you can truely be yourself without putting any barriers up because you know they wont judge you and because they know you inside out...and tstill love you no matter what you do. I have two small children who are 3 1/2 and 2 and one of the things I love most about them is their innocence and the unreserved love that they give. They dont judge you if you have a grumpy day or if you're a bit overweight or wear your pj's all day! Their love is unconditional and it fills me with dread to know that one day they will go out in to the big bad world and see how horrible people can be to eachother....but I will make sure they always know that I'll be there for them no matter what life throws at them. Self confidence comes from so many things but essentially I think it comes from a secure and loving home that gives you love and encouragement and backs you every step of the way.
Lily! Wow, your blog is incredible! HOW EXCITING! :)! I enjoy reading about your adventures! You seriously inspire me lol (aspiring journalist here!) I'll be reading for updates! Stay sweet!
Lily u rock! u re so cool! and Omg!! u interviewed Scarlett, we love u! haha we re from Uruguay, so we talk in spanish but, in english too haah, cool site, xoxo, Val & Ugie.
Hi Lily! OMG! I was almost in tears--clutching my invisible pearls--as I read your blog posting about our day in lovely Fullerton. Let me now praise you: You are by far, not only, one of the prettiest girls I have ever worked with, but so professional! I loved every minute of it. You were sweet, gracious, classy and intelligent. The "quadruple threat"! The cherry on the cake was our conversation about Chanel and how much you knew about the art of Haute Couture--there are fashion design students about to graduate that don't even know half as much as you (and I should know, I teach them!). I really hope we get to work again--or at least, have you come by my studio and play Dress Up!!! A big kiss and hugs, with much admiration, Nick
hey lily, congrats on everything your doing , you look really beautiful, a little different from the 6 year old girl i used to know take care tommy xxxx
Hey Lilly , I was that girl @ Joeseph Martin today , that u complimented on my hair. i think you are a very well rounded person. I was to shy of telling you. BTW c u again @ the salon!
That was so refreshing to read.. (blog: march 27th).. I believe it to be completely true.. I make sure to keep an active conversation going with my folks. It's amazing how easy it is to bridge that 'huge-little' gap between our generations if you genuinely take the time to try..
I've had a few different occasions where friends and I would end up discussing how our current 'day-in-age' lacks true role models.. Who do we admire these days? Just got me thinking for awhile..
You have such a wonderful soul, Lily. This is an amazing idea and my hope is that everyone will realize what a gift this blog really is.. You have created a safe and intelligent environment for any generation to speak its truthful mind.. And that, IS worth writing for..
Lily Collins is studying broadcast journalism at USC, is set to appear in interstitial programming spots airing throughout the day and night on Nickelodeon, reporting from the sets of Nick series, movie premieres, awards shows, concerts and other celebrity events. She also will host daily 30-second updates centered on current music, movie, fashion and celebrity news and join current host J Boogie to contribute reports to the weekend TEENick block.
This marks the first time that Nickelodeon has inked a deal for a roving entertainment correspondent.
"Lily is a natural in front of the camera," Nickelodeon executive vp talent Paula Kaplan said. "She can think on her feet and is comfortable interviewing a wide range of people. As a rising young star herself, she's totally plugged into the latest entertainment and pop culture trends."
I know this may sound strange, but the one place I know I can go that seems to take away the wandering thoughts is my time spent with family. My nieces( 3 and 8) and nephew (6). I don't know why but it does. much like you said about being with your brothers.
BTW.. great to hear your mis-matching your outfit and shoes and going without make-up AND without worry :) for what its worth I appreciate natural features, you'll never he me complain about going with out make-up :)
Scott in So Cal